Sunshine after the rain

Today was a better day. I went to work and had a pretty easy going day. All the servers were cut by 3, so me and the bartender held down the fort. I guess they do think I'm good enough to take the entire place during the day and train the new employees.

After work I came home and passed out. It felt good to actually be able to take a nap. The rest of the night I've just been going through boxes and trying to get everything put up. I have so much stuff!! I don't want my room to look cluttered, so I'm having a hard finding a place for everything. I need to buy something to put all my papers in. Actually I just need a box to put all my junk in.

I'm looking forward to having the next two days off. I have some errands I need to run. I also want to go swimming sometime. Tomorrow Les is coming over and I'm cooking him dinner. I'm excited about that.

Oh, I had some tasty margaritas to get me through the night. It's been about a month since I've drank any alcohol. There's nothing like a good margarita!

Sucky Day

Today wasn't a very good day. I woke up this morning and absolutely did not want to go to work. I decided to call in. I figured I could use the day to go look for another job. So after calling in, I got up and applied to a couple of banks online. Then I felt really exhausted, so I layed back down. Les called around 1:30 and woke me up. He asked me if I would take him to go pick up applications. He said he wanted to go around 3, so no hurry. I just layed around in bed until almost 3. I just didn't have any motivation. I finally got up and got ready. I must have changed clothes 6 or 7 times. I couldn't find anything I wanted to wear. I don't know what was wrong with me.

I took Les to a couple of steak houses, Outback and Saltgrass. Then we went to eat at Chick-fil-A. I wasn't in a good mood, so I took him home and then came home. I changed into my pjs and fell asleep on the couch.

I feel like I'm depressed. I really don't want to get a bank job. For one, it's not what I want to do with my career. Two, it's going to be hard working 2 jobs. Three, it might make it difficult to go on interviews. But at the same time, I don't really want to work at the Jalapeno Tree either. I don't know if I will like it better if my schedule gets better. I'm just really stressed and frustrated.

After my nap, I got up and made dinner. I had an egg sandwich and bacon. I had never cooked bacon before, so I was proud of myself. Then I watched the other movie I rented. Later on I applied for some more jobs online. One was for a sales assistant (which is what I really want to do) and the other was for an administrative assistant. I feel like I've been looking for jobs and worrying about jobs all day. Why can't I find something? Why won't people call me for an interview? I just don't understand.

Now it's 12:30 and I'm not tired. I've been having a hard time sleeping lately. I think it's because I'm stressed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I don't like to be stressed

My job is stressing me out. I hate being angry and complaining every day. My schedule is the main thing I complain about. Yesterday Michelle told me that I should be happy with my new schedule because she was able to give me more time off. Well, when I looked at the schedule today, I had the same exact schedule as last week, except with Thursday morning off. I had a nervous break down. There was lots of crying, managers talking to me, and me thinking about quitting.

It's ridiculous. I shouldn't have to work over 50 hours week after week after week. Phyllis calmed me down and told me that she would take care of everything. A few minutes later Michelle told me that she gave me Wed and Thurs off, and I don't come in until 3 on Fri. That schedule is so much better than the one I had. But I still want to quit. I think I might go and apply to some banks around the area. I don't want to, but I feel like that is my only option. I'm really getting frustrated that I haven't found a job yet. I know I make good money at the Jalapeno Tree, but it's not worth it.

After my horrible day at work, I picked up Les and brought him back to my place. I took a shower, which felt so good. Then we went to Chili's and ate. Afterwards we went to Blockbuster, rented some movies, and came back to my place to watch them. While we were at Blockbuster, I told the guy I needed to get a Blockbuster card. He said it would be a $10 charge. I asked him to repeat himself, and he said that it would be $10 for me to get a card and I would get the rewards program for free. I've never had to pay for a Blockbuster card before. I told him that and he told me that I could go to a different store. I then told him that I had a card, but my wallet got stolen. He took my ID, looked up my info, and printed out me a card. He looked none too thrilled about me already having an account. I really think that he was trying to sneakingly sell me the rewards card. I think I might call his manager.

After we watched the movie, I took Les home. I came back on a mission. And that mission was to CLEAN. I did 4 loads of laundry, swept the kitchen, cleaned the kitchen and bathroom, put the things on my shelves back up, and cleared off my counter tops. I feel like I got a lot accomplished. Now it's time to go to bed and I don't want to. The sooner I go to sleep. the sooner I have to go to work. I really don't want to work all day, but I have to suck it up.

Well Well

Well, I finally got new carpet. Mom came over Tuesday night and helped me clear off everything. She ended up spending the night since it was late. Then we got up at 8:30 (on my day off) and ate breakfast. Then I went and picked up Les and brought him over. Kyle showed up shortly after, and we moved everything out of the apartment in about 20 minutes. Most of my furniture was sitting outside my door in the walkway. The guys left while me and Mom stayed at the apartment. The carpet guys were supposed to be there around 11. We called the apartments just to make sure that they were coming, and we were told that they would be there any time between 10 and 12. So we waited and waited and waited. Kyle had to be at work at 4, so I was getting a little worried. I finally called him and told him to just go home. The carpet guys finally showed up at around 1:45. We had sat outside my apartment for nearly 3 hours! They did their job really fast and we even talked them into moving all my furniture into my apartment for $30.

After all that I was tired, but we still had to up everything. Aunt Lana came over and helped put up my star mirror, towel rack, and a couple shelves. Me and Mom got almost everything put up, except for the stuff that goes in the living room. After a long day, I cleaned up and went over to Les'. We hadn't hung out in 2 weeks, so I enjoyed our time together. Then I came home and passed out.

Did I mention that my carpet looks great?

Today was my first of three doubles at work. It was slow all day, and I didn't make much money. I don't look forward to the weekend at all.

When I came home from work I had a new towel rack in my shower and new blinds in the living room. My cabinets were open, so I'm guessing they were checking them out. I need to talk to the apartments about painting them. I'm glad things are finally getting done (the carpet, blinds, towel rack). This is also starting to feel more like home. Except now it smells because of the new carpet. But it's nothing a few candles can't fix!

Ugh

I work too much. I feel like all I do is work. The only time I see Mom is when she comes to see me. And the only time I'm around Les is at work. It sucks. Too bad the money is good. I made almost $300 in 3 days. I work 4 doubles next week. I'm going to make real good money, but I'm going to be exhausted!

I've been so emotional lately. I went over to Mom's after work today, and she had bought me groceries. I almost started crying! I guess it's from all the stress from work and moving. Now my kitchen is starting to look like a real kitchen with Mom's contribution.

I really want to give this apartment a good cleaning, but that will have to wait. Maybe next Sunday I'll have some time. I'm anxious to see the new carpet. I hope it's fluffy.

Hmmmmm...

Well, today I returned back to work. It was a very uneventful day except for the fact that Eddie and Chuck, and Mom and Debbie came by to see me. That was a nice surprise. Business has slowed down some, which worries me a little. I just wish I could find a new job and not have to worry about money.

After work I dropped Les off and then went to Kroger. I really wanted some Lipton Lemon flavored tea, but I couldn't find any. I could have run over to Wal-Mart, but I was too lazy. I did pick up some hot sauce, chicken, an onion, bacon, and butter. Then I came home to my apartment. It's still a little strange to be here. I miss home a lot. I miss talking to Mom and petting Buttercup. But then again I enjoy being here by myself when I wake up. I guess I just get lonely at night.

My apartments called me today and told me that they would replace my carpet. The only problem with that is I have to have someone move everything out of the apartment and then back in. Mom is going to take off work and help. Les is going to help, and Kyle said he could help too. Most of the stuff won't be hard to move, it's just the bed, couch, and entertainment center. Even though it's a pain, I do like the fact that I will have new carpet.

Ok, now for some pictures of my new pad:


Before all the painting:

My red wall in progress....

Purple bedroom

My crap-load of cds that I had to put in alphabetical order

The stickers I got from Ikea

My lip gloss bowl

My first days

Well, it's been a very long 4 days. I finally got into my apartment, but not without stress. There was a lot of stuff that wasn't done like: the shower rod was missing, cabinets needed to be painted, and the carpet needed to be replaced. Of course no one was in the office this weekend, so we had to move in without replacing the carpet. Now it looks like I'm stuck with it.

Mom and Aunt Lana helped out so much. They painted, moved boxes, and hung everything up. I need to do something nice for them, but that will have to wait till I get some money. Kristin came over on Sunday and helped too.

Most of my stuff is put up, but I still have a few boxes to go through. Every time I clean out something or put stuff up, I end up with a pile of stuff that I don't know what to do with. Why is that? That's where I am at right now. I'll be busy working all weekend, so I went through the house and just put everything back in boxes and moved them into the corner.

Today Liz and Cesar came over. It was fun spending time with them. Liz almost made me wreck in the car from laughing so hard. We were staring at the car next to us at the light, trying to figure out if it was a man or woman, and she squirted out too much lotion in her hand because she wasn't paying attention.

I really don't want to go back to work tomorrow. I hate that place. Mom gave me Sarah's number, so I need to call her and see if I can get a job at Clear Channel.

I'm too tired to upload my pictures right now. But I will post them soon.